It's funny how we can be embarrassed remotely. I mean, why would or should I be embarrassed for Australia, given that I am such a tiny part of the nation? But I have cringed over the past three weeks whenever I've heard "the latest" on Australia's medal count. Our fixation, even if it might be just our media's fixation, with the number of medals Australia won at the Olympics did cause me discomfort.
It's the silliness of it. But it's also the more disturbing nationalism, the notion of superiority, the suggestion that those nations not within cooee are not a great sporting nation like Australia.
If we must have an Olympics medal table let's have a table measuring medals against gross national product per capita. Better still, let's measure medals against the amount of public money spent developing Olympic athletes. Australia spends more than $1 billion preparing Olympic competitors for national glory - so much against many nations' so little that we are effectively buying medals. A professor of exercise science at the University of South Australia, Kevin Norton, estimates that each of our gold medals at the Beijing Olympics cost Australia at least $50 million!
If the Olympics are about peace and friendliness and acceptance and inclusion, what are we doing there?
I'm over Australia's version of participation in the Olympics. There's nothing in it but jingoistic entertainment and lost opportunity to be part of the real world rather than just the world of medal-count nations.
Are you brimming with pride or have you too felt the flush of embarrassment?